It’s fucking ironic for me to actually see people rant or bitch about someone in their blogs, and make it seem as if nothing happened at all the next day when I see them in school.

Damn I feel fucked up when people ASSUME things. Fuck this shitty word out of my vocabulary can?

IF YOU ARE NOT SURE ABOUT STUFFS, ASK. EVEN THE MUTE WILL TAKE THE TROUBLE TO WRITE TO CLARIFY THINGS. WHAT MORE YOU WHO ARE PERFECT IN NATURE?

I’m fine with the fact that you can’t see the positives out of things. But to overlook the fact that we actually respect the situation that you’re currently in but yet you can’t see it? That’s fucking pathetic.

IF YOU HAVE A PAIR OF EYES, MAKE FULL USE OF IT. DON’T COVER ONE SIDE AND SEE LIFE IN A PARTIALLY-BLINDED MANNER.

EVEN THE BLIND WILL TAKE HIS STICK AND FEEL HIS WAY THROUGH LIFE. HE DOESN’T EVEN ASSUME THAT THE HOLE IN THE ROUTE THAT HE TAKES EVERYDAY WILL FOREVER BE THERE.

AND FINALLY, USE YOUR BRAINS TO ANALYZE THINGS, SITUATIONS, ETC. (DO I NEED TO PUT IN MY HANDICAPPED-PEOPLE EXAMPLE HERE?) IF YOU GO WITH FEELINGS, YOU’D END UP NOWHERE.

I totally take my hats off to those handicapped people. They aren’t greedy; content with the most basic things in life. They always smile; problems are to be solved not created. They have a heart of gold; comprehending wholly the true essence of life. And you can count on them to be who they really are.

I HATE PEOPLE WHO ASSUME. THEY THINK THEY CAN OVERPOWER HUMAN’S (INCAP)ABILITIES IN READING OTHER PEOPLE’S MIND.

One thing I don’t like about Singaporeans as a whole is that we have this tendency to hold back what we have in mind. In short, we just don’t speak up.

But wait, let’s go deeper into the issue. We don’t speak up because when we say the supposedly wrong thing (supposed because there is no such thing as a wrong opinion in the first place), we are putting ourselves into the danger of being bitched, bad-mouthed and what-have-you.

Yes danger. Because relationships of any kind may be strained should we say the wrong thing, or rather the other party misinterpretes what we trying to bring across. This has been proven and yes it’s because people make an ass out of you and me that this kinda shit happens.

In order to avoid this kind of complications, people always take the easy way out and say the politically correct answer. Whenever they anticipate a controversial topic coming in their way, they will say ‘No comment‘.

They just don’t wanna make things worse you see. Aww.. how angelic and heroic their action is. So much so that it’s worthy of a Nobel Prize.

But it doesn’t just stop there. The person who brought up the controversial topic, the very same one who is left clueless in no man’s land because of the prompt ‘No comment’ answer, is subjected to countless bitching behind the back for putting forth such a debatable stand. By who? None other than the Nobel prize winner of course.

It a vicious circle and made worse by the majority of the people who aren’t willing to stand be and be counted. Instead, they just follow suit and nodded their heads in unison with those who are much more vocal than others even when they know that they are in the wrong.

YES, EVEN WHEN THEY ARE IN THE WRONG.

Why can’t you just go up to the person and reason out with him/her instead of giving that I-hate-you kinda look everytime your eyes meet each other? Everyone has their own reasons for doing something. The reasons behind what they do is very subjective. Ego, emotions, circumstances, etc. You can’t be narrow-minded and worse of all make an ass out of you and me!

You talk of being outspoken and all so that you can have the competitive edge when you go out to the working world. And that we Asians are lagging behind our European and American conterparts in terms of being spontaneous and the ability to speak up.

But the truth is far worse than it really is. It takes courage for someone to speak up. What more when they know that they may not be an everyone’s-best-friend material should they go against the majority. And this affects their social life, when group work is concerned, etc.

You become a public enemy no. 1 just because you wanna have an edge over a typical Singaporean when you get out to work? That I have to take off my hat to you, mate.

It’s a collective action and takes much cooperation for someone to just learn how to speak up. True, you have to initiate it yourself. But at the end of the day, you are still made of flesh and blood. You are human afterall. Egos get broken, self-esteem plummets down, confidence crashes.

It’s discouraging. But that doesn’t mean it’s not worth the try.

And in the light of speaking up, don’t make an ass out of you and me. Clarify, get the truth from the person’s mouth his/herself. Why confine yourself to getting third party information which may not be true at all in the first place?

And should you not already notice, that’s one of my mottos in life: Don’t assume.

I’m currently down with a fever, call it the World Cup fever if you would. And for all the talking and trashing of how good it is to be sick so that you can stay at home? I think it’s all CRAP.

You lie on the bed, trying to get your body to rest, unable to go out, socialise, breathe some fresh air other than your own rooms’, missing out on stuffs that you would have done if you were not sick. ARGH!!! I’m so pissed at my own body for breaking down now! But then again, I’m the cause of my own body’s downfall. So I guess I have no one else but myself to blame.

I was at the polyclinic just now and after numerous visits, it is only now that I realise one thing which I cannot make sense of.

When you go to visit a doctor at a polyclinic, you go through 3 stages-the pre-registration, the consultation and the medicine prescription. I went there today, a Wednesday mind you, and I was so happy there weren’t many people of my species, as in sick people.

And yet the whole thing took 2 hours at least before I can feel the natural air hitting my face rather than the air-con.

I said ‘yet’ because I have visited the polyclinic on a Saturday, by which there were many more people of my species and logically speaking the whole procedure should take a longer time to be completed.

You think so? No, it took 2 hours too.

So what can I conclude here? That going on a weekday is no better than going on a weekend? That the staff is better motivated on weekends rather than on a weekday? Shessh…

I came well prepared, thanks to my previous experiences when I nearly went senile looking at walls and sick people for nearly 2 hours. So I brought along today’s copy of The Straits Times in my bid to kill some time.

Perhaps I should consider bringing the previous 3 days’ ones the next time I pay the polyclinic a visit.

Sometimes it makes me wonder how age can defy one’s level of maturity. Maybe an 18-year-old acting like a 6-year-old kid is way too much of a comparison to be made. But what about a 20-year-old acting like a 15-year-old?

No discrimination to all 15-year-olds, I’m just making a sincere comparison here. The logic is the older you are, the more mature you will be. And the younger ones are always deemed as immature as compared to the seniors.

Well that’s not necessary the truth especially in my case. As in not ME, but what I had experienced.

I had this conversation over MSN with this friend of mine who unfortunately, had her identity ’stolen’ from a particular bastard. Let’s call my innocent friend, ‘Friend A’. It went on like this…

Friend A says:
eh how long were u with her before things ended ah?
fitree says:
why do u nid to know anyway?
Friend A says:
cos she wun tell..
fitree says:
uh huh.. but my concern is.. why do YOU need to know?
Friend A says:
cso we’re her frens and we’re tryin to figure out why she’s acting this way..
fitree says:
why she’s acting tt way=how long i was with her
fitree says:
doesnt make any real sense does it?
Friend A says:
if u were with her a few mths or mayb a year she wun act this way..
Friend A says:
i’ve seen her before bein sad after a relationship
Friend A says:
but not until like this bad..
fitree says:
pardon me but u’ve seen her being sad after a relationship b4?
Friend A says:
once..
fitree says:
when?
Friend A says:
a few years ago..
Friend A says:
before she met u
fitree says:
so des neh..
Friend A says:
yesh
Friend A says:
i havent heard anythin abt u..
Friend A says:
as in complains all those from her before..
Friend A says:
she usually complains a lot abt her previous ex-es
fitree says:
do i smell some inference here?
Friend A says:
hmmmss..
Friend A says:
anyway,current whr u schoolin??
fitree says:
dude.. i dun know whether u r lying or nt but hell yeah, only god knows tt for me.. and tt’s it man..
Friend A says::
fine ah..
Friend A says:
well..
Friend A says:
eh..
Friend A says:
do u noe dat she is a fragile gerl??
Friend A says:
do u noe dat of her??
Friend A says:
tell us
fitree says:
look, i hate ppl masking themselves..
Friend A says:
ok fine..
Friend A says:
masking ah..
Friend A says:
seems like u’re reali someone who’s not worth wastin her time on..
fitree says:
well if u wanna make an ass out of u and me.. go ahead
Friend A says:
good..
Friend A says:
fer a gerl who devotes herself so much fer her guy this is what she gets..
Friend A says:
u’re lucky i gotta end here cos she wanna use..

Well, my friend was there physically. It’s just that one of her friends used her account and started to chat with me. Or rather shoot at me. Without my friend knowing it.

So J, now you know what that certain Shak and me were talking about?

Call me immature in putting this conversation up but hell yeah, I need an avenue to vent out all my frustration. To actually talk bad about somebody without even knowing that person personally. And to actually use someone else’s identity and not your own to gun others down. How much more immature can these people be?

And oh, I just send my ‘regards’ to that particular Shak. In the form of my third finger that is.