30 months ago I had to make a choice.

Now as I looked back, it may be one of the best choices I’ve ever made in my life.

I pray hard my sister can get a decent PSLE result. Only time will tell. How I wish I could be at home to see her results, sit her down and help her choose the appropriate secondary schools.

But (sadly) I’ll be in camp. Sheesh. At times like this I feel that I ought to be at home, tending to these kinda family matters especially when my mum’s health isn’t really that good nowadays. Having high blood pressure and being a single parent with a son in NS already looks tough on paper, what more when I see her go through it all with my own eyes.

Everytime when I get home, she’ll be resting on the bed and on days that I book in, she’ll wake up just to see me off.

I try to help out as much as I can - wash my own laundry, clean the toilet, vacuum the house - but somehow it just doesn’t seem to be enough.

Every week I really hope that I can meet Babe ’cause given her tight schedule, even meeting her at ungodly hours is good enough for me. It’s tough ’cause we can’t contact each other as often due to our own commitments and summarizing 1 week’s worth of incidents in 2 short hours, with eyes half-closed, isn’t really justifiable.

But Babe, trust me… 3 weeks from now, when everything’s wrapped up for the both of us, we’ll do a proper catch up and look back at those shitty days that we have aye. Then we’ll know how much we’ve toughen up.

And I still wanna watch Salawati and Madagascar 2 with you, Babe.

Ya Allah, tabahkan lah hatiku ini. Kuatkan lah iman ku supaya ku dapat merempuhi segala cabaran-cabaran yang telah Kau bentangkan bagiku. Sesunggunya kau lah yang Maha Esa lagi Maha Mengetahui. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

After a shagged week under the sun and through all the sweaty shirts, nothing beats seeing your smile from afar, hearing your chuckle and listening to your own melayu-fied mimics.

Some things are just meant to come through time. And when it does, all I wanna do… is to treasure them.

I have always been skeptical about long-distance relationships. ’cause no matter how sweet the words may be, how ever frequent the calls are, the physical comfort is never replaceable.

I confess that the one and a half months of Babe being in Penang for shoot is the greatest test that I’ve faced thus far. But yeah… I we pulled through and that means I’m we’re ready to face the next challlenge being laid out in front of me us - National Service.

Gosh looking back at the things that happened in that one and a half months, it’s just so surreal how life has been for me. I appreciate little, little things even more and look at life in more perspective than one.

But I’m just glad that Babe is back in Singapore.

It’s the 29th day of the month once more babe.
And how I wish you were here right by my side.